Have you ever been sitting in church listening to a sermon, or in a Bible study or Sunday school class when it seems the speaker is talking directly to you? You know the feeling, the one where you look all around thinking that everyone in the room must be aware of your sin? It causes you to squirm in your seat as the God’s Word pierces your heart.
This was my experience recently at Bible study. I could barely stay sitting, as my God reached out to me with powerful words, right through the screen of the video we were watching and gave my sinful heart a good shake. I tried to be cool, not wanting anyone to see how rattled I was, but inside, everything in me wanted to run. Something about God seeming to speak directly to me about my personal stuff and using his Word in a powerful way to change my heart and mind is almost too much to bear. Could the God of the universe be speaking to me?
“what is mankind that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?” (Psalm 8:4 NIV)
Who am I that God is mindful of me?
But He is. His love for me is far greater than I could ever imagine and his desire is for my heart to soften and become more like his precious Son. His Word is powerful and it changes lives. It has changed my life, and continues to change my heart.
Even as I sit and squirm, wanting to escape from the vulnerability I feel in the moments where I realize there is no hiding from God, I am also very aware of what an amazing thing it is to have my Abba, Father, speak to me.
I want to run, but I want to stay.
I fear God, but know He loves me.
My heart is pounding, but I know in Him, I will find peace.
And it is in Him that our lives can be forever changed ~ if we are willing to open our ears and our hearts to His Word, and be willing to obey, even if it does make us squirm a little. Our God is faithful, and He is speaking to this generation. Will we listen?
“Speak, for your servant is listening.” (1 Samuel 3:10)