For Our Marriage

I need prayer. Please!

Just happened to stumble upon this site by chance and let me say that I am most appreciative of your offer to pray for those who need it. I know the power of God and will not turn down an opportunity to be prayed over by my brothers and sisters in Christ.

I’m a 26 year old mother of 2 and this weekend I told my husband I wanted a divorce. I don’t really, but I also don’t feel that I can go on living in the situation we’re in – he is addicted to a drug and won’t quit, refuses to discuss bills or contribute to the household, and is verbally abusive. He doesn’t like to spend time with his family, and constantly chooses his drug and druggie friends over us. It hurts immensely, and I’ve cried out to God over this over and over. While I often receive momentary comfort from Him, I have a difficult time burying the resentment I feel over single-handedly running a household while my husband plays video games at his drug dealer’s house. When he IS at home, he’s yelling at and berating our 2 small daughters, often reducing them to tears. It’s heart-breaking and frustrating to endure these situations over and over.

I’m torn between honoring my marriage vows and making a better life for my daughters and me. I don’t feel like I can spiritually lead our house while being around him – I’m so angry and thus distracted all the time. I also have a hard time reconciling how God would want us to live in such a miserable situation, one that seems to destine my young children for a life of emotional scars and embittered childhood memories. I just want to break away and start fresh in a place where we can be free of the strains of all his problems. I love him and deep down, do NOT want this, but what choice do I really have? Is it a sin to get out of a situation like this? I don’t want to displease God or rob my kids of a daddy, but it seems the love in our marriage is not reciprocal. That realization coupled with all the other problems has shattered my heart and is therefore affecting every area of our life. Our family is so broken, and I don’t know any other way to mend it other than divorce.

The pain is so intense that I cry every night, unsure of God’s direction. I need prayer, badly. It is MUCH appreciated.

Thanks in Christ,

Carissa

3 comments for “For Our Marriage

  1. April 13, 2009 at 2:06 AM

    Sweetie, I will be lifting your marriage up in my prayers. God bless you.

  2. April 13, 2009 at 5:42 AM

    Carissa I am praying for you this morning.

  3. pia
    April 13, 2009 at 7:54 PM

    Dear Carissa,

    I may not be in your shoes right now, I may not know exactly your pain but know that God does. Don’t give up on God. He can change your husband. He can turn things around for you. This is not wishful thinking or me giving you false hope. I do believe that we serve a mighty God and nothing is impossible with Him. Carissa, keep on praying. Don’t give up. pray over your children. Read scriptures aloud while your husband is not home. There is no magic when you do this but you will be renewed. I tell you these things because this is exactly what I’m doing at home. Praying to God and reading His Word has kept me sane all these years.

    Don’t think of divorce! Focus on Jesus first. God will fix you, then you husband. I don’t know how God will move in your situation but I do know that God will. Trust Him completely. Pray with your children.

    Father, I pray for your divine protection over Carissa and her children. I pray for a Damascus road experience for Carissa’s husband. Father, you said that if we believe in Jesus we will be saved, us and our household. We’re claiming this promise, Lord. I pray that you will give Carissa the strength she needs until the time she receives her miracle and breakthrough. I pray that in spite of her situation, you’d give her peace and joy in her heart knowing that you’re going to fight her battles and give her victory. Thank you, Father, for hearing our cries for mercy. All these, I ask in Jesus’ name, amen.

    Pia

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