Prayer

Wild wonder, that I can enter into Your presence… this is holy ground, wherever I call Your name and find You with me (and so everywhere is sacred, for “where can I go from Your Spirit?  Where can I flee from Your presence?  If I go up to the heavens, You are there; if I make my bed in the depths, You are there.  If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast.”)  Who is like You, Lord, in love or in power?  No one can compare to Your majesty… and yet You, King of all Kings, have numbered both my tears and every hair on my head.  This heart runneth over and over (and over again) in thankfulness for who You are…

and, still, there is bluster and noise.  Life presses in and I allow this and that and the other to take up space in my heart that rightfully belongs to You.  Oh, I am weary of forgetting You and the sand-spurs of sin sticking to my skin… falling so short of what You’ve called me to be, I can only say that I’m sorry, in need (again and again) of Your grace.

Who could stand in the light of Your holiness?  I am breathless with gratitude for the gift of Your Son.  “Behold, what manner of love is this?”  Love so lavish, extravagant, divine that He would give His life for me, become my righteousness and the reason I whisper Your name ~ Abba-Father ~ and You know me as child, adopted and joint-heir in this kingdom… me, so unworthy and somehow still chosen…

Please sing me awake with Your love song so that I can’t close my eyes to You… You are worthy of only my all… and my all doesn’t seem like enough and my faith somehow still falters, but frail beginnings grow in Your hands and so I offer to You: me.  (How can it be, that this is what You desire?  How wide, how deep, how long, how high is Your love…)

Lord, give me strength enough to ask You to mold me ~ not on my terms, but Yours.  Will you interrupt me, change me, sanctify anew, move in this place? (oh, I want to trust Your heart enough to hold nothing back!) … I believe ~ please, Father, help my unbelief… for my soul, it is so thirsty and my heart full of yearning for the Water and Bread that satisfies…

because we are in desperate need, all of us, in the noise and the chaos and the pain ~ these generations searching and searching, needing something True and something Good… needing You, only You.

I am humbly before You… asking for Your Spirit to re-define us so that we will be Your hands and feet, a holy people set apart for You… isn’t it time that we hear Your Word and follow Your heart?  Lord, this I know to be true: Your compassion can overwhelm this darkness, Your love cast out all fear.  Fill us more and more with Your love until it is overflowing, a mighty river flowing from Your heart to our hearts to every single heart on this earth…

This waiting-time, it’s not forever ~ and until You come again, Lord, this is the time and the place ~ now, today, wherever we are and wherever we go ~ to be Your good and faithful servants… transform us until we are like the moon, reflecting Your life-giving Light.  And I know that You will guide us, bring us safely and forever home to You… in the fullness of time, our eyes will see Your face, at last ~ Your presence our only dwelling-place… and this is eternal wild wonder, this is awe and this is blessing.

This is my heart left only with simple praise.

Thank You, Abba-Father.

2 comments for “Prayer

  1. April 26, 2012 at 8:50 AM

    “This is my heart left only with simple praise.” …and this is what he desires from us, and the “spiritual” blessings we receive in return are unfathomable. Thank you for a great morning starter and a day guider!

  2. April 28, 2012 at 9:52 PM

    Thank you Christie for this anthem of praise to our amazing God. You spoke my heart over and over again.

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