“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
(2 Corinthians 12:9-11)
For a long time I walked with God, not understanding this ~when I am weak then I am strong ~ concept. I knew my weaknesses; they were like insurmountable mountains ever before me, and I believed God would be glorified if only I could just stay on top of them. Forever was I trying to be strong in my weakness; victory ~ and glory for the God I so loved and wanted to serve ~ I believed was on the tops of those weakness mountains, and so I strove to stay on top of them.
If you are like me, and you love God, you can understand the passion I have for having a good testimony. It has only been over the last couple of years that God has begun to show me that the testimony I long for is not in overcoming my weaknesses. It is not in striving to be strong and striving to conquer my own weakness battles.
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Romans 8:37
We are more than conquerors. I type these words from a place of weakness deeper than I ever thought possible. From a place where I don’t have the strength to even consider climbing the mountain to overcome what God has allowed in this season. I, like Paul, have had to embrace the weakness and draw on the strength of Christ.
I am weak. I am strong. His grace is sufficient.